Finally! I finally found this site again. I haven't been able to keep updates since the page cannot be found. Just a while ago I tried using my PC and since it was bookmarked here, I finally got to the page again. Yaay.
My summer ended with lots of disappointing events.
First but not really big, I wasn't able to finish my current anime or manga. It bothers me not knowing the ending. But I guess it's better so I could have something to do in boredom.
Second, my lack of outings. Self-explanatory.
Third, my PC still has this ANNOYING virus which won't go away.
And fourth and the most deadly, finding out that I was separated from my childhood friends and barkada.
It has really got me down ever since the first day. I was really off my usual happy go lucky mood. And just the fact that I miss all of them so much it really annoys me and makes me not go to school even more.
Ever since I was in that different atmosphere, I could say I can still smile, laugh and joke around, but the cheerfulness the "boring and silent" atmosphere my friends in that class gives to the teachers and other students, is more and something other people nor teachers would understand at all. I've know them for years and even though they're like that, it's actually fun being around weird people. Yes they're weird, being in my class now I could actually say they are. I'm not excluding myself though, I'm really weird too. And the weirdness of theirs is really comforting for me, and now I miss it. Really badly.
So I'm now aiming not for Top1 now, I'm aiming for an honor. I know I raised the bars too high, but I just feel that I can do it, more like I want to and need to make it to that standard. The only way that can make me feel certain that I could go back to my home in school. I know they say that it's better to be out of our comfort zone. Going back to my old class isn't going back to my comfort zone because I think that studying hard (yes, it different from my usual self) is going out of my comfort zone.
When I thought about it, I've always thought I was one of those who were good in the class. Being transferred to a SECOND?! class made me realize I'm not. Now I have to prove them wrong, prove to them that transferring me to a SECOND?! class was a big. BIG mistake.
Then I accidentally made a rhyme on it. Remember my situation, to keep my motivation.
I need to keep myself from slacking off this year. I need to make it big time. Because just thinking about staying? in the class I'm in now (no offense, they're actually really active) is not a pleasant thought. And I don't mean being in any other class, but I'd prefer the one where my loved barkada are and as well as my childhood friends are in.
To be honest, it really makes me happy and smile inside and out whenever I hear them telling me to go back to their class already. I really feel that not only my barkada are waiting for me, but as well as my loved classmates. :')
Phew finally got that out of my chest. Writing paragraphs like these really takes the stress out of me.
P.S. I'd really like to remember how to make cranes again. I wanna help out too.
And teacher's are so demanding.
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