Sayonara? Why does it have to be a SAYONARA?

As everybody knows. or should know. Sayonara is used when saying goodbye to someone you're pretty much sure you won't see for a long long time.

Last night, I stopped on one of my ridiculous but inspiring stories inside my head. This story though, I included for the first time a real life friend of mine. I know that that someone, will be, is, should be reading this.

In the story I had a lot of secrets that I never planned to tell anybody but my friend. In the story my friend was the only one I opened up to, and the only one I told my deep secrets about. I'll stop there.

The thing I realized was, if that person ever leaves, I wouldn't know what to do. With my deep secrets, my thoughts about something, and a lot of things, who am I going to tell now? My friend knew me the best, understood me the best, and to be honest, the one friend I have shown my greatest interest without ever being shy about it. My friend was like my sister you know? And I love her very much. Like family.

We met during my 3rd grade along with my other childhood friend. I can't remember much of it though, how we met or how we got along. After 3rd grade we didn't get to be classmates again. During my sophomore year though, we once again became classmates. At first I didn't like it, thinking that our great friendship would be ruined if we ever got to see each other everyday in class because I already got used to us not being classmates and having different experiences in class.

For this junior year, we won't be classmates again. I know that for sure. It breaks my heart to finally accept the fact that they have to move not only where they live, but also where she would study. What am I going to do now?

Last night, since she was part of my story, I wanted to ask her about something. After saying hi, it came to me suddenly then I told her to not leave. She said she was sorry because the last time we'd probably see her again would be on her birthday. They will be moving after then. Her birthday was this month! When they move, who will I go to next? And you'll know pretty much what I mean.

I told her that it was depressing and it really was. Even if it was just a short conversation it really was. Then I wanted to log out immediately and go to sleep and I did. If you're reading this, boy you're in trouble when I get to you on your birthday because I cried. Yeah I cried. My nose got so stuffed I told myself, I will only breath through my nose no matted how hard it is for me. And If I'm still alive and still breathing through my stuffy nose. Fine I will accept it with no more arguments.

I never wanted to trouble anybody because of my selfish wish to make my friend stay. It would trouble the parents whom she didn't argue with as well. If you're so shallow not understanding why nobody argued, it's because her parents went all the trouble finding a new house they could afford, papers, errands and more. I didn't want to trouble my friend anymore as well because she's already made up her mind and I do respect that.

 And the thing is, I did wake up and I know for sure I didn't cheat by breathing through my mouth. I'm keeping my promise and will argue no more. Need I say more? Got nothing anymore though. But I'm pretty sure I'll miss my friend when they leave.