Unexplained feelings.

 These words are stuck to my head.

Today was the 1st and most boring day of my summer. Boring as it started, because of these songs it made me go back to my old self.
These songs really hit me every time I hear them. They make me realize and think of a lot of things in this world.  Basically, it made me reflect about a lot of things in my life. Especially my times of sorrow and trouble.

I often dream about a character with a deep wound in the past. The irony is, I myself never have experienced what I dream about. It's confusing, I know. But to be clear, maybe, I just wanted to have scars in life like those too. Even if I do though, I probably don't know about it because I let them go so easily or forget about it so easily because I was so afraid to be self-pitiful.

I have no clear point in this post right now. I want to have one though, because I think there's a lot to say. Today just felt different not because of the boredom, but because of the impact it made on me today by these songs. To be honest, while listening to this for a couple of times already, it makes me want to cry for some reason.

And then guess what, just by typing this, it gave me a sense of relief. And while typing this, I just found out the answer to my question. I wanted to keep it a secret but I can't. Now I just need to find out how I would put this answer into words and then I'd tell.