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this is still in though, I was in sleepy mode and review.
@sam; keep in mind the month's update for previous incident

ALRIGHT! OH NO! :O oh man, I miss them :'(

Finally! I  finally found this site again. I haven't been able to keep updates since the page cannot be found. Just a while ago I tried using my PC and since it was bookmarked here, I finally got to the page again. Yaay.

My summer ended with lots of disappointing events.
First but not really big, I wasn't able to finish my current anime or manga. It bothers me not knowing the ending. But I guess it's better so I could have something to do in boredom.
Second, my lack of outings. Self-explanatory.
Third, my PC still has this ANNOYING virus which won't go away.

And fourth and the most deadly, finding out that I was separated from my childhood friends and barkada.
It has really got me down ever since the first day. I was really off my usual happy go lucky mood. And just the fact that I miss all of them so much it really annoys me and makes me not go to school even more.
Ever since I was in that different atmosphere, I could say I can still smile, laugh and joke around, but the cheerfulness the "boring and silent" atmosphere my friends in that class gives to the teachers and other students, is more and something other people nor teachers would understand at all. I've know them for years and even though they're like that, it's actually fun being around weird people. Yes they're weird, being in my class now I could actually say they are. I'm not excluding myself though, I'm really weird too. And the weirdness of theirs is really comforting for me, and now I miss it. Really badly.

So I'm now aiming not for Top1 now, I'm aiming for an honor. I know I raised the bars too high, but I just feel that I can do it, more like I want to and need to make it to that standard. The only way that can make me feel certain that I could go back to my home in school. I know they say that it's better to be out of our comfort zone. Going back to my old class isn't going back to my comfort zone because I think that studying hard (yes, it different from my usual self) is going out of my comfort zone.

When I thought about it, I've always thought I was one of those who were good in the class. Being transferred to a SECOND?! class made me realize I'm not. Now I have to prove them wrong, prove to them that transferring me to a SECOND?! class was a big. BIG mistake.

 Then I accidentally made a rhyme on it. Remember my situation, to keep my motivation.

I need to keep myself from slacking off this year. I need to make it big time. Because just thinking about staying? in the class I'm in now (no offense, they're actually really active) is not a pleasant thought. And I don't mean being in any other class, but I'd prefer the one where my loved barkada are and as well as my childhood friends are in.

To be honest, it really makes me happy and smile inside and out whenever I hear them telling me to go back to their class already. I really feel that not only my barkada are waiting for me, but as well as my loved classmates. :')

Phew finally got that out of my chest. Writing paragraphs like these really takes the stress out of me.

P.S. I'd really like to remember how to make cranes again. I wanna help out too.
And teacher's are so demanding.

QUARTER POUNDER!

Last night, I dreamed of eating  one of McDonald's Quarter Pounder

Then I woke up realizing it was only a dream I immediately asked my mom if I could go and actually buy one. It took some time since they all wanted to go. But we did get to go, then when I finally got to buy one, they gave a change of 70pesos which would mean the coke, the fries and the burger were only 30pesos. AMAZING O.O

As I ate half of my burger, I wanted to brag it that I finally got to eat when suddenly..

I woke up again =.= DAAAMN it. Then I realized my hands were like holding a burger in the air. What was missing was the burger. So I went out of bed early just to ask the name of the burger even though I kept looking for one in my dream. I really wanted to eat one so I did.


I went to my optometrist early to get my new glasses and then headed straight to McDonald's only to find out they weren't serving any yet D: They were still on breakfast D8<
But in the end I was so happy I got to buy one. ^^

They are cute :)

Recently been watching anime non-stop. And I just really need to share the couples I'm currently been addicted to. They are just so cute and they make me feel being in a relationship like theirs is so fun. Because by the way, I'm not the mushy type. And these couples sow what I mean. (Well some of them do.)

Anyway.... I'll explain more next time. Just made this as an Excuse (:

SPONTANEOUS!

Spontaneous. A word I'd like to describe myself. No more arguing please :)

I'm spontaneous when speaking, doing something, but not typing. Lol.

Being spontaneous makes me not regret anything I will do for the next things I won't remember that much. What I will remember is the fact that

I did it and I did not regret it.






See this pic?


I typed in "spontaneous" and this was the pic that first caught my eye. I didn't hesitate to post it because it had exactly what being spontaneous is. It also represents a great genre of music. A spontaneous one that's for sure. Jazz Music.


Damn... be right back... mag-aasin daw ng isda. haha

So As I was saying, Jazz Music is Spontaneous.
Just like in life, we are the the players, and we play our best music in life.
Take Jazz music and muscicians for example. Jazz is just so spontaneous, upbeat and sometimes never ending.  That never ending upbeat music is just so great to hear. Those horn players, drums, base, piano, they do their best to play great music together. Even if one messes up, it doesn't ruin the music unless they just stop. And if they do mess up, they just pick up where they left and just go with the flow. If I was the one who would mess up, I'd just blow my horn louder and better to make up for my lost notes. Do you get what I'm tryig to say here?

Now a question, what about being hesitant?
Heck, being hesitant is just fine. But being clever on-the-spot makes you even better. Yes, we have to think of the consequences, but if you want to be spontaneous most of the time, it doesn't only concern what you''ll get and not regret but also how you will face the consequences. Here's a trick, if you're honest in what you do, you have a great chance of overcoming those consequences after. It also goes the same when you're doing something you don't regret. You have the confidence to overcome those consequences no matter how hard it will be because you didn't do something you wouldn't like nor regret.

Being nervous is just normal, just trust in God, and go for it. Everything will just be fine as long as you don't give up. The music will continue as long as you don't stop. If you do your best each and everyday good things are sure to come your way.

But remeber, what you want, isn't exactly what you need. They all know what they wanted. What they wanted- "need" to do.
They gotta dig a little deeper, find out who they are, they'll find out what they need. Not all our wants would make us happy. Our needs will.

If you're worrying about being in a new environment, don't worry, be yourself.
What you want is probably the same crazy group your previous friends were. But I suppose what you'll need are those who'd understand you just like how your other friends did.
For me, I really want to download that movie of K-ON! already, but what would really make me happy is that family bonding with our newly met cousins I've been waiting for a week or maybe a nice looong talk and games with my friends.

Unexplained feelings.

 These words are stuck to my head.

Today was the 1st and most boring day of my summer. Boring as it started, because of these songs it made me go back to my old self.
These songs really hit me every time I hear them. They make me realize and think of a lot of things in this world.  Basically, it made me reflect about a lot of things in my life. Especially my times of sorrow and trouble.

I often dream about a character with a deep wound in the past. The irony is, I myself never have experienced what I dream about. It's confusing, I know. But to be clear, maybe, I just wanted to have scars in life like those too. Even if I do though, I probably don't know about it because I let them go so easily or forget about it so easily because I was so afraid to be self-pitiful.

I have no clear point in this post right now. I want to have one though, because I think there's a lot to say. Today just felt different not because of the boredom, but because of the impact it made on me today by these songs. To be honest, while listening to this for a couple of times already, it makes me want to cry for some reason.

And then guess what, just by typing this, it gave me a sense of relief. And while typing this, I just found out the answer to my question. I wanted to keep it a secret but I can't. Now I just need to find out how I would put this answer into words and then I'd tell.

Sayonara? Why does it have to be a SAYONARA?

As everybody knows. or should know. Sayonara is used when saying goodbye to someone you're pretty much sure you won't see for a long long time.

Last night, I stopped on one of my ridiculous but inspiring stories inside my head. This story though, I included for the first time a real life friend of mine. I know that that someone, will be, is, should be reading this.

In the story I had a lot of secrets that I never planned to tell anybody but my friend. In the story my friend was the only one I opened up to, and the only one I told my deep secrets about. I'll stop there.

The thing I realized was, if that person ever leaves, I wouldn't know what to do. With my deep secrets, my thoughts about something, and a lot of things, who am I going to tell now? My friend knew me the best, understood me the best, and to be honest, the one friend I have shown my greatest interest without ever being shy about it. My friend was like my sister you know? And I love her very much. Like family.

We met during my 3rd grade along with my other childhood friend. I can't remember much of it though, how we met or how we got along. After 3rd grade we didn't get to be classmates again. During my sophomore year though, we once again became classmates. At first I didn't like it, thinking that our great friendship would be ruined if we ever got to see each other everyday in class because I already got used to us not being classmates and having different experiences in class.

For this junior year, we won't be classmates again. I know that for sure. It breaks my heart to finally accept the fact that they have to move not only where they live, but also where she would study. What am I going to do now?

Last night, since she was part of my story, I wanted to ask her about something. After saying hi, it came to me suddenly then I told her to not leave. She said she was sorry because the last time we'd probably see her again would be on her birthday. They will be moving after then. Her birthday was this month! When they move, who will I go to next? And you'll know pretty much what I mean.

I told her that it was depressing and it really was. Even if it was just a short conversation it really was. Then I wanted to log out immediately and go to sleep and I did. If you're reading this, boy you're in trouble when I get to you on your birthday because I cried. Yeah I cried. My nose got so stuffed I told myself, I will only breath through my nose no matted how hard it is for me. And If I'm still alive and still breathing through my stuffy nose. Fine I will accept it with no more arguments.

I never wanted to trouble anybody because of my selfish wish to make my friend stay. It would trouble the parents whom she didn't argue with as well. If you're so shallow not understanding why nobody argued, it's because her parents went all the trouble finding a new house they could afford, papers, errands and more. I didn't want to trouble my friend anymore as well because she's already made up her mind and I do respect that.

 And the thing is, I did wake up and I know for sure I didn't cheat by breathing through my mouth. I'm keeping my promise and will argue no more. Need I say more? Got nothing anymore though. But I'm pretty sure I'll miss my friend when they leave.

My Favorite Song

I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music at the moment people dance and sing
Were just one big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours

Scooch on over closer, dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved

open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

Oh How I love this song
Ever since I started posting Colbie's Songs I remembered to post my all-time favorite song. It also reminded me one of their songs together, 
Lucky.
And here are more of my liked Jason Mraz songs :) Enjoy!
Wordplay

Geek in the pink
Dynamo Of Volition

I Do by Colbie Caillat :)

lyrics:

It's always been about me myself and I

If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time

I never wanted to be anybody's other half

I was happy sayin our love wouldn't last

That was the only way I knew til I met you

You make we wanna say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Yeah, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I can live without it, I can let it go

Ooh, what did I get myself into

You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/c/colbie_caillat/i_do.html ]

Tell me is it only me

Do you feel the same?

You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games

I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down

You can trust I never felt it like I feel it now

Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let it go

Wooh Can I get myself into

You make we wanna say

Me a family, a house a family

Ooh, can we be a family?

And when I'm 80 years old and sittin next to you.

And when we remember when we said

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do doo

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let us go

Just look at what we got ourselves into

You make we wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Love you

Hehe. Colbie Fever. After hearing this, been listening to it a bunch of times. So I decided to put it here :) Enjoy.

I Do by Colbie Calliat

More Colbie Songs that I like: 

Realize 

Bubbly

Fallin for You

The Little Things

SUMMER! here I come. WATCHING! >:D

Alright. summer's here and more time to do more stuff.

After finishing Devil Beside you (starring Rainie Yang, Mike He) I planned on watching WhyWhy Love next but found it boring to do anymore. 

The same time I found this new Japanese show and couple which I liked before but only found they really had a couple name: YAMAKI!

Maki Horikita + Tamashita Tomohisa or Yamapi for short.

These last two pictures are from Kurosagi starring Yamapi and Maki. They also have a movie too: Kurosagi (Movie).

Even though they don't have much romantic scenes together, I still like their pairing > //// < KYAA!

Aside from Kurosagi, they also starred in Nobuta Wo Produce.

Wherein they co-starred with Kamenashi Kazuya who plays a good-guy but is just doing it for popularity and is really cold deep inside. He doesn't consider his group his real friends. His "enemy" according to him is Akira played by Yamapi is somehow stupid but very wealthy and is kind-hearted. They both became friends when they tried to "produce" the new student Nobuko (Maki Horikita) who was always bullied. It's not a love story even if Akira would have feelings for Nobuko a.k.a. Nobuta though, it's a great story about friendship.

Going back, after watching Kurosagi the series and Kurosagi the movie, I've got a few movies lined up to watch. Two of them has Maki Horikita yet again. And another favorite: Ueno Juri whom I first discovered in the drama Nodame Cantabile.

Things lined up:

Tsuabasa No Oreta Tenshiitachi :

       Episode 2 (starring Maki Horikita)

Episode 4 (starring Ueno Juri)

Nodame Cantabile Movie I (Starring Ueno Juri, Tamaki Hiroshi)

Nodame Cantabile Movie II (Starring Ueno Juri, Tamaki Hiroshi)

Tokujo Kabachi (Starring Maki Horikita, sakurai Sho)

JAPANESE DRAMA! HERE I COME!

Part I: DONE! but..

YES! Finally! After a few weeks pressure and review, the long awaited NAT (National Achievement Tests) are finally done with!

In addition to that I hereby state "Good Byes are for people whom you will see again for you are sure you will definitely meet them after a short while again, that's good. But never assure that You will NEVER see a certain person again in your life."

Why did I say this? simply because my values teacher will be leaving us after the school year ends. She has good reasons, I won't argue with that. It's just that I, We will miss her so much. Our batch is probably the most looked down on, the worst among the students in our school. She's moved me so much especially her thought of OUR BATCH graduating and I do believe that she does believe in us despite our title and behavior as the worst. :(
She tries to understand us as much as she can and is always there to be on our side. I f not, she still tries to know what happened and does not prejudge our actions. THANK YOU.
WE WILL MISS YOU MS JOAN ARBILLON! 

Instead of studying, why am I playing?

WAAH! I'm not studying.. for math. I can't believe I'm not panicking to study in Bio. Maybe because it's only about genetics. But math, awww, why am I not studying?

Damn. I had to be addicted to Toss the turtle now. BAAAAAAD.

DARN. It's addicting O_O

More ants = Rain? I LOVE RAIN.

According to sayings, whenever there are times when you could see a lot of ants, it means that rain would be pouring down sooner or later. What's the basis of this saying? I don'tr know to them, but for me these ants come out a lot before the rain to collect lots and lots of food for themselves during the rain.

What's annoying is, they come after our food. Even my donuts :( damn those guys. Don't they know I love my donuts? A little bit as much as I love chocolate. Probably as much as I love Shrimps though. And the rain. :)

SHRIMPS!

DONUTS!

RAIN!

I'll be continuing on the loving rain part. It often gives me relaxation and a bit of happiness whenever I hear the pouring sound of the rain. The cold breeze it bring and the feeling it gives me. Yeah, sunshine is great but most of the time, it gives me one heck of a bad mood. I don't care whether I get wet when raining, as long as it continues to pour and make those dripping sounds, I'm good. But maybe I just hate too much daylight. 

See, I often go to bed late but I'm instead of getting sleepy, I'm more energetic. I do like it too whenever I'm the only one up. You could only hear pure silence and the wind blowing outside. Not like during the day, there's so much to see, to hear, to know, to meet. Sometimes it just gets boring and tiring. 

Whenever there's rain, or I'm just the only one up, I just sit on something, maybe drinking coffee or Milo, then I start thinking of a lot of things. I like it, I'm able to have my own time for myself and get away from all problems for a while. No one to annoy you or boss you around even for a while.

Raining and the dark alone reminds me that in life and the world also has its ups and down. It can't always be sunshine and with light. Sometime we just have to be alone for a while or to have dark sides just to understand that life can't be perfect. The times whenever things aren't going out as you planned, but at the end, you'll find it better than how it was planned.

I guess I'm just tired.

You know those times when you're really excited and looking forward to something?
These things help us get through our daily lives and daily problems.
Though, there are times when there's nothing to look forward to or be excited about something. It's just depressing. boring, or maybe I'm just tired.
I'm suppose to be watching happily Devil Beside You by now. Instead, I'm doing boring things, I'm tired and worried about future things. I guess it's ok to worry and have problems, but what's hard is, there's nothing to motivate me from doing anything and it's just depressing.
It's also these times where I could be looking for someone or something, listening to music up until I get tired of all of it. Damn, I don't like this one bit. There's no inspiration.

And the fact that I'd be leaving my sophomore year without clearing a misunderstanding with a friend. The National Tests for 5 subjects which I and my so the rest of the class has to pass these tests no matter what
 ! I'm too lazy to put on more things to say.

Mornight :3

I have no idea why I do this most of the time (maybe I do, a little).
I always tend to sleep immediately after coming home from school and then waking up about 8-9. Then staying up late till 1 am.
Anyway, I guess this really does prove my personality as a nightingale huh? hehe :D
Good thing I'm still able to post at this late of hour during school nights. I did sleep before, so I still have energy to spare :D

Oh and by the way, I finally got the CD from MeiMei, been looking froward to watch Devil Beside You all this week, even if the series is already years ago :P

DEVIL BESIDE YOU! here I come >:D

AIYAA D:

PANIC!
one thing that I'm missing is PANIC.
I listed down the things I had to do tonight. and ended up with:

Find Cooking outfit

Make reaction paper in arts

Make reaction paper in AP

Notes in PA

Homework in english

Homework in math

And this is the list I did up until now:

Blogspot

Youtube

Facebook

Chat

Bought new ballpen

Bought yellow papers

eat eat eat

GOOD LUCK SAM! My adrenaline rush is missing D: OH NOOO!!

CHOCOLATE + rum?

Wow. Chocolate sabi ko sa sarili ko. "Ate akin nalang" "bahala ka, sayo na yan"
hahaha. katuwa. tas unang kagat sarap pa eh. Second- bleh! I almost cried. But I didn't :)
haha. I wish it had't been mixed with rum! x( Though, it was good. The first bite. :)
But this will not, no, NEVER stop me from loving chocolate the way it is.

READY? GO!

NOOOOOOO!!!!
damn. :I This was suppose to be my first real great amazing first time post. Now, I accidentally deleted it then poof! it became nothing!

It was really long and then- WOW! I actually deleted it!. oh man >:|

Super and great it would've been, alas! We must move on. -sad-
I actually was looking forward about this all day. I kept thinking of stuff then after that I was so sure I'd put here. Now all gone. I won't type it again. Simply because I forgot most of it. Oh my poor memory. But as much as I love typing better than writing at times, I'd post here short things. Randomly short things.okay?  Whenever I would want share something, I'd make sure I'll post it here! IKE IKE GO GO!